so about a week ago my brother and 2 of my best friends surprised me at home.. my brother lives in vancouver , one friend is from victoria, and my other friend i grew up with in china, he now lives in NY.. anyways..they surprised me last week...did i mentioned that a few months ago i thought about starting a blog... one thing lead to another and here i am writing a freaking blog.. believe me...i would have never thought i'd be doing this... first of all my writing skills aren't so great.. and literature is just not my thing.. i'm more into "science-y" stuff.. things that are straight forward and are not up for liberal interpretation... like what does the red in this paint splattered canvas represent.. please.. that stuff just doesn't make sense to me..
there are a few reasons why i'm doing this.. one is to keep my friends and family informed.. cause i'm tired of explaining my status repeatedly..not that i don't like talking to them..i just don't have that much energy.. Two. this can potentially be a form of therapy for me, cause believe me i need some form of therapy and there doesn't seem to be much information out there for young couples.. and when i say young.. i mean people who are between the ages of 20 and 25...not early 40's.. whenever i search "young couple with cancer" i get sites comprised of adults who have children and have been married for years.. come on.. you are not young.. you are middle aged.. they should be called middle-aged couples with cancer... i digress...first of all being married at this age isn't common and having cancer at this age isn't common.. so i figured someone has to start talking about it, because i'm sure there are people like me, there just isn't an outlet of some-sort..or at least an age-appropriate outlet.. (my wife is making fun of me blogging right now!!! in a good way.. i love her.. she will come up often in this blog)
another reason i'm doing this .. is cause i'm bored of knowing the TV programming off by heart..
i don't feel like talking about myself right now.. so i'll let you know a little about my wife... she is a princess.. hahahha.. she grew up telling people that.. honestly.. seriously though.. her name comes from a famous princess.. shahrzad.. she's named after the princess in 1001 nights.. don't know if you know about it.. google it if you don't.. i don't feel like explaining...anyways.. she grew up in africa.. in Niger for 5 years and Kenya until she was 15.. then she moved to the US.. she doesn't care much for the US... i mean if you were a 15 year old girl and just moved away from your friends ... you really wouldn't care for wherever you moved...my wife is soo talented but i keep telling her she is a waste of talent...haha cause she has so much of it and could do anything but she doesnt use it... seriously.. she can sing, dance, write better than the average person...she would never call herself an artist.. but she is artistically inclined.. she loves to paint and she loves figure drawing.. she is more into art most probably cause her mom is a fine artist and she was exposed to it a lot growing up.. basically my wife is good at all the things i'm horrible at... i think that's one reason i was attracted to her; i figured she'd enrich my life with things that i know i would never expose myself to...
she goes to art school here in toronto.. to OCAD, and is studying material art and design.. she wants to go into jewelry design.. she also loves to bake.. her dilemma in life is whether she should open up a bakery or have her own jewelry line...
my wife this week is PMS'ing.. for those of you out there who are married.. do you feel my pain when i say this?.. hahaha.. she has her good PMS's and bad ones.. this month is good.. so i'm not complaining at all... you know what.. i probably shouldn't talk about this until she is done PMSing... cause i might catch some hell for it...babe... if you are reading this... I LOVE YOU!!!! and for all those women out there thinking...why is he talking about it... the answer is cause i know there are guys out there that just need to hear that theyre not alone.. i think all married guys should get together and talk about what we have to deal with during PMS.. i think it would be good therapy haha... cause believe me.. .i would feel better if i knew other guys were going through the same thing... and it would make it easier to deal with...so for all you guys out there.. i feel your pain of PMS... or whatever you call it.. the dragon.. the devil.. the crazy person...(my wife calls it the monster)...the caged beast...anyway i feel your effort..
I got chemo today.. so it's starting to make me feel like crap...people ask me what is chemo like.. and the only way i can describe it is.. it's like you are dying from the inside out.. you feel dead inside... it's like im breathing out death...
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