positive thinking...not as easy as it seems

ok.. so today i'm feeling much better, thanks to my lovely wife pushing me to get on the bike we recently have received...so i got chemo on wednesday... found out i basically don't have knees... which surprisingly I am not too upset about... i think it's because it's nothing compared to lucky... however what did bother me was knowing i'm not going to be able to play football (soccer) again... that kind of got to me.. but i might be getting ahead of myself... i obviously haven't talked to a surgeon or a rheumatologist yet... so who knows what my options are and will be... either way if it's worst case scenario, i.e. no surgery until i'm 40, i'm ok with it...

so lately we are just trying to get back into things... getting my energy level up... eating right... more so trying to focus on the mental aspect of things.. like being positive i.e. thinking about the future.. getting excited for things that even though they may seem small are important to celebrate...like no more steroids... or the fact that its the last cycle of intensification... or even that we might potentially take a short trip to some beach in dec... im trying to think about life instead of forgetting about it... just because I haven't been thinking much about my future at all.....it's hard to think about the future and get excited for things when you are physically not ok. But my wife made a good point today....she said that there is no point waiting for things to get better before you celebrate the good that you have now cause we are always going to have

something to worry about...thats life. For example we thought intensification was going to be

over and now we are confronted with this knee problem.. and who knows what's going on with the transplant stuff... it could be another year...so if we are always waiting for an optimal time to be excited then we will always be waiting and not living.

anyway for dinner a couple nights ago the wifey made sabzi polo and fish.

Sabzi in farsi means green...and polo means rice....so basically we had green rice haha

Its rice with dill and some lime beans in it....its delicious....and we pan fried tilapia (dont worry...we used very little oil) after coating it first in eggs and then in flour with fish seasoning,salt,cayenne pepper,and turmeric.

Cayenne pepper= kills cc

turmeric= shown to prevent cc

tilapia= vitamin D that i need for my bones

dill=my greens for the night

lima beans= full of antioxidants.....bad for cc...good for me :)

i cant find the picture of the finished meal......but it was delicious ;)

eat healthy

peace